Showing posts from July 1, 2012

To my left

Today I chose a local nursing home for my husband and he was accepted and will be moving there on Monday. I was so happy, and turned to the empty seat next to me to let David know what had happened.
Then it hit me, that David wasn't there to share the news and that David was the one needing the home and hospice because of Alzheimer's.

This has been the weirdest time and my happiness over his departure from the hospital only makes sense in a movie I said I would write.

I do things like buy milk, fill the car with petrol, water the garden and all the time I'm screaming inside "I miss David."  My left hand naturally reaches out for his. Before I do anything and everything now, I need to get myself mentally prepared. I never realized how much comfort and strength David gave to me on a daily basis. How much connection I would receive just from our feet touching when we slept or our arms lazing around one another watching television.

On Thursday morning I was sitting wi…