Showing posts from June 24, 2012


Driving back tonight there were fireworks hitting the sky and I was reminded of my first year in the USA when David and I went to see the July 4th fireworks. At that new stage in our togetherness, I did not wish to admit that I am scared of fireworks! (What a pilchard I am.) Rather than share this, I planted courage and cotton wool in my ears, without him knowing and braved the display.

I'm sorry David that I have not faced fears now and gotten you out of that hospital. Tonight, I truly thought you had a stroke because of the way you were slumped over, barely moving. I sat there, holding your head in my hands, crying and telling you how much I am sorry. The hospital have intimidated me so much that I was even concerned about them having to request a doctor to see you. I didn't want it to mean more medication.

At one point, your eyes flashed open and you told me that you loved me, clear as a perfect day you spoke. You started to cry and we kissed. We were so together and connec…

Loving yourself & Nora Ephron

I tweeted the other day about the number one need to love yourself.

Most people, including myself, take this advise lightly. Yes of course it would help, how can you possibly do it though? Doesn't that make you conceited? We all know those people who need mirrors attached to their hands to continue their admiration.
Doesn't loving yourself lead to spending money at retreats named ahhh? Purchasing angel cards, purple scarves and bong circles?

I know for sure what happens when you don't.

You believe the bad press that is given to you. You quickly expect it and reward it on a daily basis. You give it to yourself willingly. You promote it by writing and paying for the billboard above your head. The inner critic that we all have, feeds on it and grows inside to such a size that you have nothing left, just a choir of negative voices.
You're selfish, fat, boring, angry, lazy, useless, pointless, disorganized, a dreamer, a loser, gullible, too nice, too friendly, too cold, too…