I am currently in my office and could be working, yet I find myself thinking about my dream of writing.
Today I feel exhausted, been working hard and not taking care of myself. Mentally and physically I am on the whale side of bloated.
First time ever I am going to publicly say out loud that my husband has early on set Alzheimer's.
Every day I witness him struggle with what I take for granted. My heart breaks a little each day.
I want to reverse that and to say that my heart opens each day to do my best to support him and I on our new journey.
For all of us to take for granted our dreams, talents and joys - is an extravagance. There is so much to embrace. I wonder if I can learn from looking at the opposite of my sadness? So in my tiredness, instead of feeling it as failure, I will look forward to getting an early night tonight. My physical bloating will enjoy release by drinking lots of water and slowing down this week end. My anxious heart will be calmed when I hug my husband again tonight when I allow myself to leave early from work at 5pm today.
I ask you to find peace in your hearts and health - and to wish all those in difficulty some lightness in their boldness. With love - Jayne
This is a brave and beautifully honest post, Jayne. You are opening up for both your writing and your personal health and well-being. This strength you are embracing is powerful- you nurture it as you nurture yourself and your husband.
ReplyDeleteTake care of yourself; You are as important as your dreams.